The Idealist Did Not Exist

I’m really good at delaying gratification.

However, the problem I have with this ability is that eventually, nothing is gratifying. I experience a lack of any form of heightened emotion associated with what I receive in the end.

It has become so bad that I reject surprises. I reject any situation which I have no control over. I’m too used to things being predictable.

There is a girl inside who still yearns for what she fears and rejects.


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